[he oofs at the sudden hug, but wraps his arms around merle back. uh... his shoulders, mostly.]

Thanks. I know. Sorry. I just... [one arm lets go; he rubs his face.] it's hard. When I can remember everythin' I did. Killing my friends and laughing in their faces when they cried in pain. It's...

[he stops, swallows.]

I didn't... really see Magnus after I first saw him when I got back. How was he?